Regrets and "what ifs"

[laurenrae_vsg]

I have been struggling a lot lately with regrets in regards to Willie. I keep replaying the night we put him down over and over again. What if I had taken him to the vet a few days earlier? A week earlier? Did I miss his signs that he was sick? Was it something I did wrong?

I know this isn't healthy and isn't going to help me heal but fuck, I miss him. The void he left is excruciatingly painful. It almost doesn't even feel real. I know he's gone, I know we cremated him and his ashes are on his shelf. But it doesn't feel real.

I know "time heals all wounds" but, does it really?

I don't think it does.

I don't think I will ever heal.

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[xtremeroswellian]

:(

It will eventually hurt less. It won't ever totally heal. There are times I still miss and cry over Bosco.

*huge hugs*